Profile cantfindlove29: Looking for love in all the wrong places

Basic Information Tell us a bit about yourself.

I Can Speak English
I Would Describe Myself As (I'm A Fool) I'm a fool. I expect too much, then I am angry because nothing ever works out the way I want. When I was young and full of hopes and aspirations, I didn't know I would get hurt so often. I think I'll get tough and won't ache again, then my fragile shell shatters, and again, symbolically, my blood is spilled with the tears I shed. I pull myself back together again, go on, convince myself there is a reason for everything, and at some point in my life it will be disclosed. And when I have what I want, I hope it stays long enough to let me know I have it, And I won't hurt when it goes, for I don't expect it to stay, not now. I am like a doughnut, always being punched out in the middle, And constantly I go around searching for the missing piece, And on and on it goes, Never ending, only beginning...
Sign Pisces

Appearance & Situation What's your present situation? Describe your appearance.

My Body Type Is Athletic
My Height Is 5' 9 (1.75 m)
My Eyes Are Green
My Ethnicity Is Caucasian
My Marital Situation Is Never Married
I Have Kids Yes - Not At Home
I Want Kids Not Sure
My Best Feature Is Lips
Body Art Secret Piercings
My Hair Is Other
I Have One Or More Of These No pets

Status What do you do?

My Education Level Is Some College
My Current Employment Status Is Full-time
My Speciality Is Other
My Job Title Is HVAC
I Make This Much In A Year Under $100,000USD/yr
I Live With Roomate(s)
At Home It Gets A Bit Crazy Sometimes
I'm A Smoker No
I Drink Yes - Socially

Personality How do you act? What are your tastes?

Back In High School, I Was A Quiet One
My Social Behavior Is Reserved, Shy, Observant, Friendly
My Interest And Hobbies Are Arts & Crafts, Reading, Learning, Music, Movies, Internet, Games, Clubbing / Bar Hopping, Family, Dining, Photography, Theater, Travel, Gardening, Cars, Camping, Fishing / Hunting, Playing Cards, Computers
My Idea Of A Great Time Is Hanging Out With Friends, Going Shopping, Staying At Home, Trying New Things, The Movies, Relaxing, Sleeping, Clubbing / Bars, Reading A Book, Going To A Casino, Tv, Going To A Concert, Going To A Museum
An Ideal First Date Would Be Depends on who I'm with and where.
I've Always Wanted To Try (The Paradox Of Love!) To be alone and without love can cause one to feel singular in a world of billions. The feeling of being entirely alone has no equal. Even being in the company of all the friends you've ever known, does not lift this vortex of feelings. Soon you begin to feel as if you're being punished for some galactic crime. Can there be a crime so vast that one's soul should go through such torture? Or is it only what some would call a learning experience? But by a flip of the coin I see it from the other side. To have love and all that comes with it, can be just as troublesome. The fights, the jealousy and the pain. I've known friends to cry for days over things I think trivial. But sometimes I would sell my soul for what they have. Then other times I would not take the gift of love for all the money in the world. I stand here, as do many looking through a world size bail of hay for the needle of love. Will I ever find the needle, will you? Sometimes I ask myself, why am
My Friends Describe Me As Being Friendly

Views Views on life.

My Religion Is Not Religious
I Attend Services Never
My Political Views Are Not Sure
My Kind Of Humor Is Friendly

Taste What do you like?

On Tv, I Always Watch News, Cartoons, Documentaries, Dramas, Situation Comedies, Instructional, Movies, Sports, Re-runs
When I Go To The Movies, I Always Go To See A Action, Science Fiction, Comedy, Romance, Drama, Documentary, Family, Animation, Horror, Thriller
When Listening To Music, I Always Listen To Rock, Metal, Pop, Classical, New age
When I Read, I Always Read News, Ancient, Anthology, Auto-biography, Biography, Business, Classic, Comic, Computers, Fantasy, Fiction, Health, History, Home & Garden, Horror, Humor, Instructional, Mathematics, Music, Mystery, Nature, Philosophy, Political, Reference, Poetry, Religious, Science, Science Fiction, Sports, Technical
My Idea Of Fun Is Being aroung the people I care about.

(Wanting To) The lights are slowly diming, My heart is slowly breaking, Sadness is entering my soul, But I'm afraid of being alone. So I stay with the pain and regret, Wanting to be free but not alone, Wanting to be loved but not isolated, Wanting to be held but not smuthered. My problems are getting worse, Tears at night creep down my face, Holding a pillow close to feel loved, Knowing things will just be as they were yesterday. The confusion is so strong, I don't know where I stand in my own life.

Looking for What are you looking for in your soulmate?

What Do You Find Attractive? Intelligence, Humor, Great Skills, Boldness, Oddities, Spontaneity, Power, Flirtatiousness, Thoughtfullness
What Do You Look For? Only to Be Myself
To be myself is to be . . .
what no one else wants to see.
Feeling what I want to feel,
and doing what I do.
Rejected every single time
I try to do some good.
People come and people go,
and friends aren't friends at all.
They turn their backs or stab at you
to watch you stumble and fall.
Is there no such thing as acceptance . . .
without really fitting in?
Why must I always be the one
whose heart lets everyone win?
Can't a person just be their self,
so no games are involved?
I just want and need to be
a person truly loved.
What Kind Of Relationship Are You Seeking? Friend, Date, Intimate, Committed